Monday, April 24, 2006
depressing. i still have no job and i applied to so many places.. whoever said that you'll for sure get one because you applied to so many places is WRONG!!!. BLAH. i should just kill myself now. now i have no idea how i'm suppose to pay for rent and friggin tuition. nothing is going to be harder then this. i'm willing to take whatever job, as long as i have one that can help pay for rent and tuition. someone please help me find one and hook me up with one. no job = ultimately screwed . no job means i don't even know if i can go back to school in sept. ARGH.. AKJDHFKAJHDF i'm going to go cry and study now. SIGHH =*(
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i'm really trying to just have a little more faith. but it's running low. i started applying for jobs since feb. and i got like ONE interview. that's it. and it's so hard when all i hear is "i got a job, etc.. God is so good." from other people. ARGH. i've been trying really hard to not worry about this.. but how can i not? when having a job means that i won't be screwed over during the summer and the following school year.. and as each passing day, i find myself becoming more and more angry with God because of all the uncertainities. i find myself angry because i really don't know what's going on and the job means either the death of me or keeping me alive. and i find myself just running low on faith because i don't know how much more i can take of this. SIGH.
** edit..
i'm really trying to just have a little more faith. but it's running low. i started applying for jobs since feb. and i got like ONE interview. that's it. and it's so hard when all i hear is "i got a job, etc.. God is so good." from other people. ARGH. i've been trying really hard to not worry about this.. but how can i not? when having a job means that i won't be screwed over during the summer and the following school year.. and as each passing day, i find myself becoming more and more angry with God because of all the uncertainities. i find myself angry because i really don't know what's going on and the job means either the death of me or keeping me alive. and i find myself just running low on faith because i don't know how much more i can take of this. SIGH.
# posted by jann @ 5:06 PM 
